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I am on the verge of giving up something that I had held on for very long or maybe not that long I don’t know. Or maybe I need to take a few days off just on my own and think things over and try to remember everything that happened to put me in the place I’m in right now. That’s what I did; I just sat inside my room and repeated everything in my head.

I am sick of studying already. GAHHHH I know this is wrong but I DON'T FEEL LIKE STUDYING: ... maybe I just don't really see the point of doing well in studies anymore. I used to study really hard and usually get good grades at the end of the year. Of course, I would then be happy and go out for celebrations with my friends, thinking 'FINALLY! IT IS OVER! I DON'T HAVE TO STUDY ANYMORE WOO!!' And before I know it, a few weeks later, the holidays come but I'm given a whole stack of homework (so it's not really hols). The next year starts, and I have to start studying again.

Once it starts, I start studying real hard again, thinking i am going to get this year over and done with just get good grades. And yea I do. But AGAIN just after some time of cheering and laughing and fun, I have to start work again!

This has gone on and on for so many times and I am so sick of my life. Why? I think it just feels like a whole hideous cycle going round and round. And maybe I just don't really see the point of doing well in studies anymore. I want to get 'out there' and live my life, instead of being cooped up in my room memorising my ass off. I honestly do not see the real point of studying, especially for subjects I don't think I will ever use. Now, my common test is coming up and I am still not ready because it is a lot of work but the worst thing is I don't feel like studying anymore.

I am sure everyone feels like this once in a while. What do you do to get yourself going again? And no, thinking about the consequences doesn’t work for me because I have tried that so many times and my brain is like 'Whatever.' Thou I know that studying and doing well academically open windows to a better life.

I still remember how he held my hand for the first time . I was surprised, I must say. I didn't let go, I've no idea why either.

I love you <3

It's perfect. Everything I could and have wanted in a camera. Im not a professional photographer or anything but wanted to have my pictures turn out great. The "auto" on this camera takes professional great looking pictures. If you want to get into it and all of the different settings it takes amazing pictures. Everyone who sees it just falls in love with it and wants to play around with it. I am just super happy with it and hope it lasts forever! ♥♥♥xoxo

The Canon G12 has brought me immense happiness. The happiness comes when I download the photographs I’ve taken for the day, go through them one by one and never fail to be amazed at what a good equipment I own. It’s definitely not the best, but it’s the best for me, I don’t like to be bothered with too much details and frills. I just want a point-and-shoot camera that can produce the best possible results without having to fiddle with all the knobs.

Life's been pretty uninteresting. Same old routine. Consuming copious amounts of food and then feeling immense guilt and regret, studying unproductively, watching TV dramas, surfing random websites, internet stalking after receiving a tip-off from friends. Lately I’ve been really upset because I don't know what I want in life and I can't figure out what I truly want either. School has been freaking me out so much that I drag going to classes because I feel that I couldn’t absorb and focus . The journey to school is horrifying! I don’t know how long more I can endure with this, really. I want to be motivated, driven and aligned. I want to be on the "right track" for me, whatever it is .

在現實生活里，有時候當你拿出真心來和對方交朋友時，對方卻只把你當成普通路人在回應， 感覺會很受傷但也看清人的現實。 我並不是甚麼大人物或是個很有本領的人， 跟我交朋友並不會給你帶來甚麼特別好處。 只有一顆真心。 但卻在有些人眼裡，這顆真心不值一文錢。 有好處，才值錢。

I am thankful that I have someone who never fails to make my day. I love you boy'f

It has always been a time for looking back to the past, and more importantly, forward to the coming year.

 My New Year’s resolutions are:

1. Spend More Time with Family & Friends

2. Fit in Fitness

3. Enjoy Life More

4. Get Out of Debt (bills are making me crazy)

5. Learn Something New

6. Lose weight

7. Concentrate more on studies

8. Save Money

9. Travel

10. Be Less Grumpy

11. Start driving

12.Not to lose retainer

13. Get myself a Dslr

 
This year I vow to exercise more and worry about my weight less, be kinder to myself and tell everyone.I really mean it this time!I am really really truly going to keep my resolutions this year. I want to lose weight and save money. I figure I can make them work together ― if I eat better, I’ll save money, since healthy, simple food like fruits and veggies are cheaper than the processed junk that I am addicted to. If I lose weight, I’ll also be able to save money by shopping my own closet and wearing the clothes I’ve grown out of! I think I literally have about five sizes worth of clothes in my closet.

 2010 will be remembered fondly as the year during which I finally got my driving license and my braces off and I've met the most amazing boyfriend on earth.

  XOXO

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As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back. - Travis Ong Jiabin

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I haven’t been writing in this space for very long already and now that I have a day off from class and I’ve no errands to run so yeah but got to head to work in the noon. I’m insanely in love and life’s pretty sweet. And it will continually to be this way, sometimes love can be a roller coaster ride because one is more obsessed than the other, and it’s hard to meet in the middle, and we’re always in the middle. We’ve been equally attracted to each other. I fell in love with you and it’s the best! I always think that communication, trust, mutual understanding and respect is very important every relationship. Avoid bringing up the past, be reasonable, verbalise the love often and share quite moment together. Don’t let calling, texting feel like a chore, rather than an act of love. Ultimately, it’s our love for each other that sustains our relationship, we want this to work, so we’re making effort. It definitely brings us closer and strengthens the bond between us.

And YES! I did it! After the many attempts, I’ve finally got my driver’s license! I’m so thrilled and happy seriously! “When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place, never give up on something that you can’t go a day without thinking about” This has really motivated me so much that whenever I feel like giving up and I know that if I don’t step forward I’ll always be in the same place, and if I believe that I can do it, then I’m half way there. It doesn’t matter how many people say it cannot be done or how many people have tried it before, it’s important to realize that whatever you’re doing, it’s your first attempt at it! Fall seven times, stand up eight!

I think I’m spending beyond my means. But still, I want to get my desired camera so soon! Now, that life is on the good track, I need to start saving and so dying and desperately need to travel. I want a plane flight with Veronica and Pam! Faster, soon soon we’ll be enjoying.

And now, I’ve to focus on my studies, I die die need to score well if not I’ll be so dead.

No matter the distance, my heart will follow ♥ ♥